More than My Trauma

The past year and a half, it has been hard for me not to define myself by my trauma. I have been through some things. I’ve had some long, complicated experiences that have been arduous to process. Years worth of mess to sort through. And it has been hard not to stay stuck. I’m sure […]

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Accepting the Good

I’ll be the first one to admit that I think platitudes about gratitude are lame. (Though I’m sure I’ve made plenty on this blog…) Gratitude cannot be the solution to everything, and besides, some problems need to be wallowed in and solved that way. Right? Waiting In the middle of 2019, I decided to start […]

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When It Costs Everything You Have

Tonight is the start of Rosh Hashanah, the Jewish New Year. Tomorrow also happens to be the day I start seminary. It’s a new season for me, a very significant one. And tonight, I realized it needs to start with surrender. Everything is shifting around me. I just moved across the country to a new […]

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Transition, Weightlessness & Restoration

At the beginning of the year, I left the home I had built in Korea. I left my closest friends, my job, my routines, and all the futures I had envisioned for myself on that peninsula, and I returned to the States. I was excited, but I was also heartbroken. In one hand, I held hopeful excitement about my new beginning; but in the other, my whole world seemed to be slipping away like sand through my fingers […]

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2019: Moving Back to the US

I have now been living in South Korea for over SEVEN years. That seems crazy-long, but also far shorter than I expected. Part of me thought I would stay here forever. But for now, I’m departing. In a few short weeks, I will be moving back to the States! Despite the fact that I grew […]

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Learning to Be Weak

I have been learning the same lesson over and over the past several months––actually more like the past two years. The lesson is this: I am weak. At times I’ve felt intensely frustrated, stuck, even hopeless, wondering if this season will ever end. But what can I say? God is a thorough teacher. Not Okay The […]

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Yet, Still

There are certain basic truths I always come back to. These truths form the foundation of my life, the rock on which I stand and the rock to which I cling. One of those truths is this: God loves me It’s one of the the Sunday school truths that soon grows stale and cliche if […]

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Remembering the Dark Times

I used to see the dark times as something to forget. I wanted to pretend they had never happened. My struggles and failures, the moments of intense loneliness, fear, and confusion––I just wanted to put all that behind me. The point was to overcome. The point was to move forward. But in the midst of recent […]

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