The Difficulty of Loving (and facing my desire for affection)

The Importance of Love I’ve been thinking a lot about love lately. Not romance, but the kind of love we are all supposed to have for one another. Sacrificial love. Brotherly love. Compassionate love. Strangely, at the very same time I’ve been pondering the importance of love, I have simultaneously been dismissing my own need […]

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Learning to Let My Heart Break

Recently, my heart has been breaking a lot, and it hasn’t felt great. In fact, at times I wondered if something were seriously wrong with me. Unable to shake a heaviness that didn’t seem to match my circumstances, I finally asked God what was wrong.

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The Strength to Persevere

It’s been awhile since I’ve blogged, but after a two-week trip to the States, a move to a new apartment, and a pretty major hair cut.. I’m back! New Beginnings Right in line with my Year of New Beginnings, I moved into a new apartment last week! Woohoo! It’s an amazing home with a lot […]

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Some Lessons From the Middle of the Process

I haven’t been blogging much the past month, because I’ve been doing a lot of personal processing. A lot. My thoughts, beliefs, hopes, fears, insights, and regrets have all been tangled together like a giant knot that is slowly getting loosened. And from that mess, I didn’t feel I had anything to share. I’m still […]

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Pretending to be Strong

Sometimes I lie to myself and pretend I am strong. I pretend I am capable of taking care of myself, that I know what I need and am capable of obtaining it. I think it’s a survival instinct most of us fall back on. When we are hurt, when we are disappointed, when situations collapse […]

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Coming to the End of What I Thought I Knew

*** “Knowledge puffs up.” – 1 Corinthians 8:1 *** Ever since I was young, I have craved knowledge and understanding. As a kid, I asked my parents what the meaning of life was and thought their answer–“No one really knows”–was absolutely ridiculous. So everyone is just blindly staggering through their lives? That doesn’t make sense! I have […]

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Good Friday: The Reason for Suffering

Salvation is a free gift. Yet it came at a great cost. I used to think my part was to simply receive the gift. Which is true. A gift isn’t something you earn. You simply open your hands and receive it. However, I found myself a little confused as to what this gift entailed. I thought that since Jesus took on […]

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Choosing Forgiveness (Learning to Love Myself)

I had this unexpected epiphany recently: I realized that I needed to forgive myself. As a Christian, forgiveness seems like a pretty basic concept. God forgave us, so we must forgive others. We need to let go of offense, get rid of bitterness, and release to others the grace we have been shown. It’s one of those seemingly simple […]

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