The Difficulty of Loving (and facing my desire for affection)

The Importance of Love I’ve been thinking a lot about love lately. Not romance, but the kind of love we are all supposed to have for one another. Strangely, at the very same time I’ve been pondering the importance of love, I have also been dismissing my own need for it.   What I have been […]

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Learning to Let My Heart Break

Feeling Lost Recently, my heart has been breaking a lot, and it hasn’t felt great. In fact, at times I wondered if something were seriously wrong with me. Unable to shake a heaviness that didn’t seem to match my circumstances, I finally asked God what was wrong. “Why do I keep having bad dreams, God? […]

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The Strength to Persevere

It’s been awhile since I’ve blogged, but after a two-week trip to the States, a move to a new apartment, and a pretty major hair cut.. I’m back! New Beginnings Right in line with my Year of New Beginnings, I moved into a new apartment last week! Woohoo! It’s an amazing home with a lot […]

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Some Lessons From the Middle of the Process

I haven’t been blogging much the past month, because I’ve been doing a lot of personal processing. A lot. My thoughts, beliefs, hopes, fears, insights, and regrets have all been tangled together like a giant knot that is slowly getting loosened. And from that mess, I didn’t feel I had anything to share. I’m still […]

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Pretending to be Strong

Sometimes I lie to myself and pretend I am strong. I pretend I am capable of taking care of myself, that I know what I need and am capable of obtaining it. I think it’s a survival instinct most of us fall back on. When we are hurt, when we are disappointed, when situations collapse […]

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Good Friday: The Reason for Suffering

Salvation is a free gift. Yet it came at a great cost. I used to think my part was to simply receive the gift. Which is true. A gift isn’t something you earn. You simply open your hands and receive it. However, I found myself a little confused as to what this gift entailed. I thought that since Jesus took on […]

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Where He Is

This morning I told God I simply wanted to be where He was. “If you’re in the storm, then I want to be there too,” I told Him earnestly. I’ve been in a bit of a storm lately, but it occurred to me this morning that just because life is rough doesn’t mean that isn’t exactly where God is. God can be […]

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Early Morning Prayer: When You are Willing to Pay a Cost

I am not a morning person. As in, I usually sleep through mornings. So you could say we’ve become unacquainted. But this week, I decided to go to early morning prayer. In Korea, early morning prayer is a staple of the church. Crowds of middle-aged women (and others) faithfully arise with the sun to seek God’s face and intercede […]

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