Some Lessons From the Middle of the Process

I haven’t been blogging much the past month, because I’ve been doing a lot of personal processing. A lot. My thoughts, beliefs, hopes, fears, insights, and regrets have all been tangled together like a giant knot that is slowly getting loosened. And from that mess, I didn’t feel I had anything to share. I’m still […]

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Pretending to be Strong

Sometimes I lie to myself and pretend I am strong. I pretend I am capable of taking care of myself, that I know what I need and am capable of obtaining it. I think it’s a survival instinct most of us fall back on. When we are hurt, when we are disappointed, when situations collapse […]

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Good Friday: The Reason for Suffering

Salvation is a free gift. Yet it came at a great cost. I used to think my part was to simply receive the gift. Which is true. A gift isn’t something you earn. You simply open your hands and receive it. However, I found myself a little confused as to what this gift entailed. I thought that since Jesus took on […]

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Where He Is

This morning I told God I simply wanted to be where He was. “If you’re in the storm, then I want to be there too,” I told Him earnestly. I’ve been in a bit of a storm lately, but it occurred to me this morning that just because life is rough doesn’t mean that isn’t exactly where God is. God can be […]

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Early Morning Prayer: When You are Willing to Pay a Cost

I am not a morning person. As in, I usually sleep through mornings. So you could say we’ve become unacquainted. But this week, I decided to go to early morning prayer. In Korea, early morning prayer is a staple of the church. Crowds of middle-aged women (and others) faithfully arise with the sun to seek God’s face and intercede […]

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Falling (why I’m thankful for mistakes)

I used to be deathly afraid of making mistakes. Not only as a straight-A student, not only as a classical pianist, but also as a person. I pictured this ideal of who I was supposed to be and found the idea of slipping outside of those imagined lines unbearable. It has taken a lot to learn to accept the messiness […]

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Looking Back, Stepping Forward

As 2015 comes to an end, I have been reflecting on the past year, coming to understand the winding pathway it was with greater clarity. If I had to use one word to describe my 2015, I would say: Restoration. One year ago, I was in a place of brokenness, my faith shaken, my hope […]

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Childlike Wonder

I still remember how I first learned the word jaded. My sixth grade English teacher said she preferred teaching us sixth graders because by eighth grade, students became jaded. Jaded? What was this mysterious quality of eighth graders she found so unlikeable? Now I not only know the definition of jaded, I sometimes, to my […]

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