What I See and Dare to Believe
As an introvert, I sometimes struggle to make time for people. When I get busy, the first thing I toss out the window is socializing. I need my Saturday’s all to myself so I can recharge, I tell myself. But after one of the most draining weekends of my life (working at a two-day English Festival doing […]
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I guess this is what grieving is like.
Missing her laugh and her cooking and her sense of humor. Remembering her inner strength and all the important things she taught me. Wishing I could have somehow communicated to her that even though I am all the way over here and she was all the way over there, I never forgot her for a second…
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Grandfatherly Wisdom I had a lovely chat with my grandfather last night. It made me realize I should call my grandparents more often. I have so much to learn from them. First of all, my grandfather is almost 85, and he is more physically fit than most people I know. When I called, he was at […]
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There have been moments in my life when someone I am supposed to love has hurt me to the point that I just can’t take it anymore. I don’t even know what the loving way to handle the situation is. Love seems impossible. They have been some of the most gut-wrenching moments in my life. Because to me, love is the ultimate goal. So if I can’t love, I must be a failure.
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I’ve always been a people-pleaser. Growing up, when someone asked me a question, I never took it at face value. I never thought about what I wanted, only about what they wanted to hear. There were moments when I was so afraid of disappointing or offending someone that I became completely paralyzed, unable to say […]
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Sometimes I feel like an old woman. Especially when I try to get up after sitting in one position for too long. (My joints aren’t what they used to be…sad but true.) I also felt like an old woman on Christmas Eve when I was watching my little siblings (ages 5-10) sing Christmas carols up on […]
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It takes real maturity to say proper goodbyes. That’s what I’ve decided. Anyone can just run away. You make a decision in your mind that you’re moving on to the next stage, next place, next community, job, relationship, or whatever. And then you just do. No looking back. But having proper closure is healthier. And […]
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The hardest thing in the world is choosing to forgive. Choosing to let go of offense. Feeling betrayed and hurt by people and then choosing to get back up and keep loving on people. Sometimes I want to give up. I want to give up on relationships. I feel that way every once in a […]
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