Sometimes to go farther, you have to go back. Just for a moment. You have to go back to that place of greatest fear, that space of rawest vulnerability, that area of deep disappointment. You have to re-enter that place for just a moment in order to overcome it.
That’s what often happens to me when I worship God.
In His presence, all pretense is stripped away and the deepest parts of my heart are uncovered. He says, “Give that disappointment to me.” Or, “You don’t have to be afraid that this great blessing is too good to be true.” Or, as He did the other day, He simply looks me in the eye with this deep, deep look that says, “I understand,” while at the same time smiling, saying in that smile, “But you know everything is just fine, right?”
And that’s how He changes me. Slowly but surely, He is.