Sometimes I have these moments of longing for things that I don’t have and that aren’t in my power to procure.
They make me feel slightly powerless, like I’m not sure what to do with myself. Because I want to be fully present in the current moment and appreciate what I have today. Yet the longing persists no matter how much I try to ignore it.
I think what I fear deep down is that even if I were to receive the things I long for, it wouldn’t be enough. So what is the point of anything? I spent much of my youth caught up in such angst.
But the answer is simple.
As Rick Warren states at the beginning of his well-known book The Purpose Driven Life, It’s not about me. That truth sets me free, it really does.
The answer lies not in looking deeper into myself, but in looking up.
While God is self-sufficient, infinitely beautiful, and unquestionably good without my help, as soon as I acknowledge His goodness and beauty, I somehow become a part of it. I get to participate in it, even by that simple act of acknowledgement. That’s why recognizing His worth doesn’t make me feel worse about myself, though compared to Him I am dust and my life a blade of withering grass. It somehow elevates me, too. It’s a mysterious, wonderful truth.
And of course, it doesn’t stop there. He invites me into something more intimate than admiration from a distance. In the end, we who know Him will be like him.
He invites us into glory.