I finally watched The Impossible yesterday.
I highly recommend it. (It’s based on the true story of a family that went through the tsunami of 2004). I’ve been meaning to watch it for a long time, but wasn’t in the mood until yesterday. It was one of those visually and emotionally captivating movies that will stick with me for a long time. (Needless to say, I cried a lot.) And it was all the more powerful of an experience knowing it had really happened.
When I think about what that family went through, such a scary, devastating, out-of-the-blue disaster, it makes my problems and my fears about my future seem small and paltry.
Yet there is also something I envy about that family’s situation: They knew exactly what they were fighting for.
Sometimes, I’m not sure.
I’m not certain if the things I’ve imagined for my life are what I really want. I’m not sure where I’m headed, or where I’m supposed to be trying to go. I begin to doubt whether the goals I’ve set are worth pursuing. I get confused by all the complicating factors of how things really are, and I lose my steam for the fight.
There is one thought that brings me comfort: God knows. It’s all clear and straight-forward to Him. He sees, He knows, and He has a plan.
It’s actually not my job to make the plan. I forget that sometimes.
I claim Proverbs 3:5 as my life verse.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. But so often I forget. All I need to do is trust.
A little girl once shared her testimony up front at a church I attended in college, and she spoke on the topic of trust. She couldn’t have been older than ten or eleven, but her words profoundly impacted me. She shared that when she had asked her mother why God allowed difficult situations to happen, her mother had said it was so that people could learn to trust Him.
“But I already trust Him,” the girl told her mother.
“He is teaching you to trust Him more,” she replied.
I have thought of that word of wisdom many times since. In this situation, He is teaching me to trust Him more. And what could be a more essential lesson than that?
But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds.
– Psalm 73:28