The Fear of Failure

Recently, I told God that I was scared to be elevated to a higher position of influence. I might fall into pride or lose the intimacy I have with Him. I might forget that I needed Him and become the kind of person who shouldn’t be looked up to. Going higher can do that to people––I’ve seen it even in myself.

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The Boldness to be Me

I used to think of my life purpose as a job. It was my job to be Christ to the world. It was my job to support, encourage, comfort, and edify those around me. But God didn’t create me to do a job, He created me to be a person––a unique individual that no one else is or can be. He created me to be Me.

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Purpose & Potential: Living in Freedom

It is easy to think of destiny or calling as something that either limits us or puts unbearable pressure on us. But Christ paid a high price to set us free––free from sin, fear, shame, and death. He didn’t free us to make us slaves all over again. But so often we live just that way. As if we are still slaves. 

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The Tale of a Good Girl Seeking Escape from the Trap of Obligation

The Life of a Good Girl As a “good girl,” I have always known there were certain things I should do. Certain things I should be. I should be kind and considerate. I should be respectful and obedient. I should complete the tasks assigned to me with excellence. I should avoid laziness, tardiness, dishonesty, or anything that would […]

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Where He Is

This morning I told God I simply wanted to be where He was. “If you’re in the storm, then I want to be there too,” I told Him earnestly. I’ve been in a bit of a storm lately, but it occurred to me this morning that just because life is rough doesn’t mean that isn’t exactly where God is. God can be […]

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Being Young and Female: The Lies I Used to Believe

As a girl who grew up in a very liberal environment, attended college in the Bible belt, and has attended numerous churches of various denominations, I have observed and absorbed many different views of gender and gender roles over the years. I find there are still many contradictory thoughts floating around in my head about what it means to be female. Subtly and silently, hidden attitudes and beliefs play tug of war in my head.

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The Altar: The Place of Killing

Two weeks ago at my church’s retreat, a preacher said the heavens were open, that there was a special grace to make requests to God. “Ask Him for whatever you want from Him!” he said. I’m not sure what other people in the room were thinking, whether they were asking God for spiritual gifts or spouses or […]

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Done with Performing

Last weekend at my church’s Praise Team Retreat, I performed a song I wrote. It was the first time I’ve ever performed an original song for a group of people, and I was pretty nervous. I expected that. What I didn’t expect was getting so choked up with emotion that I could barely croak out […]

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