When Being Thankful Isn’t Enough

If someone asked (but no one is), I could list off many reasons why I’m thankful right now. This is a good season of my life. So much freedom, so many things I love. Funny moments, solid relational connections, activities I find fulfilling. Things are good. It’s so easy to say that, if called upon. I could say […]

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Falling (why I’m thankful for mistakes)

I used to be deathly afraid of making mistakes. Not only as a straight-A student, not only as a classical pianist, but also as a person. I pictured this ideal of who I was supposed to be and found the idea of slipping outside of those imagined lines unbearable. It has taken a lot to learn to accept the messiness […]

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Resurrection and Travail

Last weekend, I started thinking about heaven. Not even because it was Easter weekend, but just because of life. There are certain moments when I feel a deep heaviness––it’s difficult to comprehend later, in the normal moments––but I would describe it as a truly horrible feeling, the sort of emotional breakdown that leads either to personal implosion or a deeper grasp of life’s […]

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On the Contrary (when life doesn’t go your way)

Sometimes things just don’t go my way. The bus driver doesn’t stop for me. The local store runs out of my favorite cereal. My kids come to class acting like they just did shots of espresso. Sometimes even bigger things happen…

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Learning to Trust

I finally watched The Impossible yesterday. I highly recommend it. (It’s based on the true story of a family that went through the tsunami of 2004). I’ve been meaning to watch it for a long time, but wasn’t in the mood until yesterday. It was one of those visually and emotionally captivating movies that will stick with me […]

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Existential Thoughts

Some days I find myself filled with existential thoughts. There have been quite a few of those days recently. Whether because of my recent visit home, the contract I signed last week to teach English another year, the recent passing of a wonderful person I had the privilege of knowing, or the convergence of all those things with the […]

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Looking Back, Stepping Forward

As 2015 comes to an end, I have been reflecting on the past year, coming to understand the winding pathway it was with greater clarity. If I had to use one word to describe my 2015, I would say: Restoration. One year ago, I was in a place of brokenness, my faith shaken, my hope […]

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Childlike Wonder

I still remember how I first learned the word jaded. My sixth grade English teacher said she preferred teaching us sixth graders because by eighth grade, students became jaded. Jaded? What was this mysterious quality of eighth graders she found so unlikeable? Now I not only know the definition of jaded, I sometimes, to my […]

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