Learning to Be Weak

I have been learning the same lesson over and over the past several months––actually closer to two years at least. The lesson is this: I am weak. It comes in waves. The depression, cynicism, and confusion do give way to happiness, laughter, and moments of intense clarity. But then another round comes. At times I’ve felt […]

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Yet, Still

There are certain basic truths I always come back to. These truths form the foundation of my life, the rock on which I stand and the rock to which I cling. One of those truths is this: God loves me It’s one of the the Sunday school truths that soon grows stale and cliche if […]

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The Difficulty of Loving (and facing my desire for affection)

The Importance of Love I’ve been thinking a lot about love lately. Not romance, but the kind of love we are all supposed to have for one another. Sacrificial love. Brotherly love. Compassionate love. Strangely, at the very same time I’ve been pondering the importance of love, I have simultaneously been dismissing my own need […]

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Some Lessons From the Middle of the Process

I haven’t been blogging much the past month, because I’ve been doing a lot of personal processing. A lot. My thoughts, beliefs, hopes, fears, insights, and regrets have all been tangled together like a giant knot that is slowly getting loosened. And from that mess, I didn’t feel I had anything to share. I’m still […]

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Purpose & Potential: Living in Freedom

It is easy to think of destiny or calling as something that either limits us or puts unbearable pressure on us. But Christ paid a high price to set us free––free from sin, fear, shame, and death. He didn’t free us to make us slaves all over again. But so often we live just that way. As if we are still slaves. 

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Childlike Wonder

I still remember how I first learned the word jaded. My sixth grade English teacher said she preferred teaching us sixth graders because by eighth grade, students became jaded. Jaded? What was this mysterious quality of eighth graders she found so unlikeable? Now I not only know the definition of jaded, I sometimes, to my […]

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Perfection (Met by Grace)

As a recovering perfectionist, I can attest: Perfectionism is a bad thing. It’s overwhelming, paralyzing, and ultimately unhelpful. Requiring perfection of yourself is a miserable way to live, because you will never attain it. Yet we all––in some areas, at least––desire excellence. To me, the line between pursuing excellence and getting caught in perfectionism can be […]

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In the Meantime

The real battleground is in the mind. That’s where the real war is waged. It’s where I do battle every day. Sometimes so many voices fight in my head that I get completely turned around. Small suggestions that seem harmless, like natural thoughts, can be poison. Sometimes it takes me the whole day to realize I’ve been slowly dying inside. I’m an over-thinker. […]

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