When He draws close

I melt. No matter how long I’ve known Him or how many times I’ve heard Him say He loves me, it will never get old. Not the way He says it. Show me Your glory. I decided to ask for that last night, walking down a dark alley, no one else around. I paused, checking myself. Did I […]

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When I Need Reminding

God is always ready. Even before I realize I need it, He is ready to tell me how He loves me. How fully, how tenderly, how deeply. His love is the kind that lasts a lifetime and even beyond. I get down on myself sometimes. I get discouraged. I lose sight of what’s ahead and get […]

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The Altar: The Place of Killing

Two weeks ago at my church’s retreat, a preacher said the heavens were open, that there was a special grace to make requests to God. “Ask Him for whatever you want from Him!” he said. I’m not sure what other people in the room were thinking, whether they were asking God for spiritual gifts or spouses or […]

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Learning to Be Honest about the Little Things

I’ve always been a people-pleaser. Growing up, when someone asked me a question, I never took it at face value. I never thought about what I wanted, but only about what they wanted to hear. There were moments when I was so afraid of disappointing or offending someone that I became completely paralyzed, unable to […]

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The Difficulty of Saying Proper Goodbyes

Proper Goodbyes It takes real maturity to say proper goodbyes. That’s what I’ve decided. Anyone can just run away. You make a decision in your mind that you’re moving on to the next stage, next place, next community, job, relationship, or whatever. And then you just do. No looking back. But having proper closure is […]

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Encounters that Change You (God’s Love)

I got some crazy revelations last weekend. Some major mindset shifts. (I was at this awesome church leadership retreat, in case you’re curious.) And, I experienced a lot of JOY. Not just normal haha that’s funny let’s retell that story later kind of joy. But happiness so deep and wide and overwhelming it almost hurt. […]

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Real Life: Trying to Handle It on My Own

Life is hard. I think it’s healthy to expect it to be. Lately, it’s been rather hard for me. But instead of talking about why it’s been hard or the strategies I’ve been brainstorming on how to make everything better, I’d just like to share one simple observation: Life is much harder when I try […]

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Facing the Unknown

I used to be highly uncomfortable with the unknown. I desired answers and to just know what lay ahead. In fact, I wanted to not just know, but to be there. Now I know that it’s much better to live an adventure, to NOT know everything. The unknowns make life exciting. Before, I didn’t know what it […]

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