Learning to Let My Heart Break

Recently, my heart has been breaking a lot, and it hasn’t felt great. In fact, at times I wondered if something were seriously wrong with me. Unable to shake a heaviness that didn’t seem to match my circumstances, I finally asked God what was wrong.

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Waiting is Only for a Season

Promises There are many promises from God I’m still waiting on. By promises, I mean assurances that God has given me personally. Words I’m holding onto in faith. Things God told me He would do sometime in the future. Some of them are big things, things that are much bigger than me. But some of them are […]

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The Nature of Faith

I started this year determined to have faith. Even when things looked impossible, I decided I would believe what God said and not what I could see. It’s only been one month and already, that resolve has been tested. Almost constantly.

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If I Were Living For Anyone But Him

I got sick this week. I forgot how bad it feels to be sick. How hard it is to remain optimistic and gracious. How difficult to not pity yourself and shut others out. I almost didn’t make it to church today. I was sitting in front of my computer, eating breakfast, reading the news, looking though […]

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Indescribable Moments

Sometimes I wonder about things. Other times I simply stand in wonder. Do you know that there is always more? There is always more. It’s just a question of whether you want it. This past weekend was my church’s all-church retreat. Friday was a national holiday here in Korea, so we got to have a […]

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Staying in the Place of Faith

A wise friend once said, “There is a fine line between having faith and being lazy.” He said it in the context of looking for/waiting for the right job, and as someone now in that position, I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately. After almost 4 months of being unemployed and income-less, should I feel guilty? […]

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Bombs

I had a dream the other night that someone was trying to kill me. It was like an action movie. While in the car with my family (in the dream I went home for Thanksgiving), bombs went off in parking garages, next to buildings, on the street, but we always sped off just in time. […]

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Ready to Dream Again

Waking Up An open schedule can paralyze me. Instead of pursuing all the personal projects I’ve been putting off, I usually just watch TV, take naps, and generally waste time. I lose my sense of direction. I’ve been putting off a lot of things lately: Moving, applying for my new visa, buying a keyboard, finding piano students… Instead of […]

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