Resurrection and Travail

Last weekend, I started thinking about heaven. Not even because it was Easter weekend, but just because of life. There are certain moments when I feel a deep heaviness––it’s difficult to comprehend later, in the normal moments––but I would describe it as a truly horrible feeling, the sort of emotional breakdown that leads either to personal implosion or a deeper grasp of life’s […]

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Death Defeated

There is one particular moment that stands out from my church retreat experience last weekend: falling to the ground weeping at a single song lyric: Just moments before, I had stood for an altar call to release disappointment, and deep disappointment had surfaced about my grandmother’s passing back in December. It wasn’t just disappointment that God never physically healed her from Parkinson’s. Nor mere sadness about […]

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Grieving

I guess this is what grieving is like.

Missing her laugh and her cooking and her sense of humor. Remembering her inner strength and all the important things she taught me. Wishing I could have somehow communicated to her that even though I am all the way over here and she was all the way over there, I never forgot her for a second…

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