Remembering the Darkness

I used to see the dark times as something to forget. I wanted to pretend they had never happened. My struggles and failures, the moments of intense loneliness, fear, and confusion––I just wanted to put all that behind me. The point was to overcome. The point was to move forward. But in the midst of recent […]

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Jesus

Last Friday night, I sobbed really, really hard for a really, really long time. One of those all-alone-in-the-dark-of-your-room-when-you-should-be-sleeping kind of intense sobbing sessions. The thing is, I am so thankful for that experience. Because it showed me who I am: I belong to Jesus. 100%. Not exactly a new statement, but something He keeps establishing […]

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Isolation

I sometimes struggle with feelings of isolation. Often there is a simple cause: physical distance from friends, not seeing many people because of sickness or busyness. But once the feeling takes hold of me, I sometimes generalize it and start to see my whole life through that lens. When I view my interactions with people through […]

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Unshakable

Sometimes I feel like I’m living a semi-charmed life here in Korea. OneRepublic’s “Good Life” captures pretty well the carefree feeling I often have. I don’t know exactly what the future holds, but I can’t help feeling upbeat about it. This past week, however, I felt something quite different: Deep loneliness. Sometimes I feel lonely when […]

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Being an international student

The hardest part of my day-to-day life here is when I have to wait for a practice room at school. I love going to church, meeting up with friends, watching dramas and reading in my cute little apartment, practicing piano, going to the market, cooking, and going to studio class (probably in that order), but I hate […]

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Two weeks in…

Now that I am getting more settled in to my life here, I have more space to think about the future. And to miss home. Being here is a wonderful, wonderful gift, but the other day I realized that I’m really not open to staying here long term. In my heart I know my future […]

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