The Fear of Failure

Recently, I told God that I was scared to be elevated to a higher position of influence. I might fall into pride or lose the intimacy I have with Him. I might forget that I needed Him and become the kind of person who shouldn’t be looked up to. Going higher can do that to people––I’ve seen it even in myself.

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Overly Cautious: How I’m Convincing Myself to Take More Risks

I am a fairly cautious person. For good reason––the world is a dangerous place! You never know what could happen! (Someone could not return your hello..! Or the new menu item you order could turn out to be terrible!) But despite those realities.. I don’t want to stay in my comfort zone. The comfort zone is a […]

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Falling (why I’m thankful for mistakes)

I used to be deathly afraid of making mistakes. Not only as a straight-A student, not only as a classical pianist, but also as a person. I pictured this ideal of who I was supposed to be and found the idea of slipping outside of those imagined lines unbearable. It has taken a lot to learn to accept the messiness […]

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Perfection (Met by Grace)

As a recovering perfectionist, I can attest: Perfectionism is a bad thing. It’s overwhelming, paralyzing, and ultimately unhelpful. Requiring perfection of yourself is a miserable way to live, because you will never attain it. Yet we all––in some areas, at least––desire excellence. To me, the line between pursuing excellence and getting caught in perfectionism can be […]

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Facing the Unknown

I used to be highly uncomfortable with the unknown. I desired answers and to just know what lay ahead. In fact, I wanted to not just know, but to be there. Now I know that it’s much better to live an adventure, to NOT know everything. The unknowns make life exciting. Before, I didn’t know what it […]

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