Boracay: Not Just a Tourist

Vacation I just got back from a week in Boracay, one of the more famous beautiful Philippine islands. It was gorgeous. White, soft sand. Clear blue water stretching as far as the eye can see. Puffy clouds, blue skies, hand-painted sunsets, twinkling stars. That’s Boracay. But while I met some cool people, did a lot of fun things, and took a […]

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Resurrection and Travail

Last weekend, I started thinking about heaven. Not even because it was Easter weekend, but just because of life. There are certain moments when I feel a deep heaviness––it’s difficult to comprehend later, in the normal moments––but I would describe it as a truly horrible feeling, the sort of emotional breakdown that leads either to personal implosion or a deeper grasp of life’s […]

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Looking Back, Stepping Forward

As 2015 comes to an end, I have been reflecting on the past year, coming to understand the winding pathway it was with greater clarity. If I had to use one word to describe my 2015, I would say: Restoration. One year ago, I was in a place of brokenness, my faith shaken, my hope […]

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Searching

Media Fast: Day 25 Being shaken forces your roots to go down deeper. That’s something I’ve been learning during this 40-Day Media Fast. Man oh man, I didn’t foresee how challenging this fast would be when I started it. Not the giving up TV and movies part. That’s been relatively easy. But the shaking…oh the shaking. At times, […]

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Smashing Cockroaches

The other night, I had one of the most traumatic experiences of my life. I entered my bedroom just in time to see a huge cockroach leap right into my bed!! To give some context, I sleep on the floor (on a mat). I also sleep inside a pop-up mosquito tent with a zip-up flap door. Inside […]

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Something Better Than TV

When God calls us to sacrifice something, it is easy to focus on what we are losing, to feel like God is taking something from us. (I do love me some quality TV.) But the truth is that He always gives something far better than whatever He takes.

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In the Meantime

Battle The real battleground is in the mind. That’s where the real war is waged. It’s where I do battle every day. Sometimes so many voices fight in my head that I get completely turned around. Small suggestions that seem like harmless, natural thoughts can be poison. Sometimes it takes me the whole day to realize I’ve been slowly dying inside. Over-thinking I’m an […]

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Death Defeated

There is one particular moment that stands out from my church retreat experience last weekend: falling to the ground weeping at a single song lyric: Just moments before, I had stood for an altar call to release disappointment, and deep disappointment had surfaced about my grandmother’s passing back in December. It wasn’t just disappointment that God never physically healed her from Parkinson’s. Nor mere sadness about […]

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