Death Defeated

There is one particular moment that stands out from my church retreat experience last weekend: falling to the ground weeping at a single song lyric: Just moments before, I had stood for an altar call to release disappointment, and deep disappointment had surfaced about my grandmother’s passing back in December. It wasn’t just disappointment that God never physically healed her from Parkinson’s. Nor mere sadness about […]

Read More

New Beginnings

“Return to your stronghold, O prisoners of hope.” – Zechariah 9:12 There have been heavy thoughts swirling around my head lately. This season is supposed to be a time of new beginnings, but it’s been a struggle to believe in new beginnings for myself. I’ve been wrestling with fear and dread. I’ve nearly gotten pulled under at times. […]

Read More

Bombs

I had a dream the other night that someone was trying to kill me. It was like an action movie. While in the car with my family (in the dream I went home for Thanksgiving), bombs went off in parking garages, next to buildings, on the street, but we always sped off just in time. […]

Read More

Ready to Dream Again

An open schedule can paralyze me. Instead of pursuing all the personal projects I’ve been putting off, I usually just watch TV, take naps, and generally waste time. I lose my sense of direction. I’ve been putting off a lot of things lately: Moving, applying for my new visa, buying a keyboard, finding piano students… Instead of taking […]

Read More

Stolen Joy

Several weeks ago, I declared war on stress. I realized it was stealing my joy. So I decided it was time to fight. Life is a struggle, I wrote in my journal, and being a fighter is crucial. But during my church retreat last weekend (all messages can be found here), I realized that that picture of […]

Read More

The Lion King: The Power of Identity

The Lion King is one of my favorite movies of all time. I always found its themes of identity, shame, and destiny to be powerfully moving as a kid, and I find them no less so now that I am an adult. Love this clip from the movie: As Rafiki says, The question is: Who are you? […]

Read More

Thanksgiving

I can’t believe Thanksgiving, my favorite holiday of all time, is in two days. It totally doesn’t feel like it. This is the first Thanksgiving ever that I am not spending with my family. (Wow, that just sunk in…) But somehow, as my first Thanksgiving abroad (i.e. a Thanksgiving that doesn’t feel like real Thanksgiving) approaches, […]

Read More