Learning to Be Weak

I have been learning the same lesson over and over the past several months––actually closer to two years at least. The lesson is this: I am weak. It comes in waves. The depression, cynicism, and confusion do give way to happiness, laughter, and moments of intense clarity. But then another round comes. At times I’ve felt […]

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Remembering the Darkness

I used to see the dark times as something to forget. I wanted to pretend they had never happened. My struggles and failures, the moments of intense loneliness, fear, and confusion––I just wanted to put all that behind me. The point was to overcome. The point was to move forward. But in the midst of recent […]

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The End of 2017, My Year of New Beginnings

2017 has been a great year. But I am also extremely excited to turn the page to 2018. For the first time in recent memory, I am eager to greet the new year, not because I’m in a rush to say goodbye to the last season, but simply because I am expectant of the good […]

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Some Lessons From the Middle of the Process

I haven’t been blogging much the past month, because I’ve been doing a lot of personal processing. A lot. My thoughts, beliefs, hopes, fears, insights, and regrets have all been tangled together like a giant knot that is slowly getting loosened. And from that mess, I didn’t feel I had anything to share. I’m still […]

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Purpose & Potential: The In-Between

Between What Is and What Could Be One of the biggest struggles I have had in regard to life purpose is living in the tension between what could be and what is. Dreams and desires God seemed to put on my heart remain out of reach. Potential I see in myself stays dormant, for years. […]

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Pretending to be Strong

Sometimes I lie to myself and pretend I am strong. I pretend I am capable of taking care of myself, that I know what I need and am capable of obtaining it. I think it’s a survival instinct most of us fall back on. When we are hurt, when we are disappointed, when situations collapse […]

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Coming to the End of What I Thought I Knew

*** “Knowledge puffs up.” – 1 Corinthians 8:1 *** Ever since I was young, I have craved knowledge and understanding. As a kid, I asked my parents what the meaning of life was and thought their answer–“No one really knows”–was absolutely ridiculous. So everyone is just blindly staggering through their lives? That doesn’t make sense! I have […]

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Persevering Past the Not Good

I finally shared a draft of my novel with some other humans last week! I immediately regretted it. Then I decided I didn’t regret it. And then I concluded that this 62,000-word project I’ve been pouring all of myself into for the past 9 months was a bunch of junk. But it was still good I wrote it. […]

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