Learning to Be Weak

I have been learning the same lesson over and over the past several months––actually more like the past two years. The lesson is this: I am weak. At times I’ve felt intensely frustrated, stuck, even hopeless, wondering if this season will ever end. But what can I say? God is a thorough teacher. Not Okay The […]

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The End of 2017, My Year of New Beginnings

2017 has been a great year. But I am also extremely excited to turn the page to 2018. For the first time in recent memory, I am eager to greet the new year, not because I’m in a rush to say goodbye to the last season, but simply because I am expectant of the good […]

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Some Lessons From the Middle of the Process

I haven’t been blogging much the past month, because I’ve been doing a lot of personal processing. A lot. My thoughts, beliefs, hopes, fears, insights, and regrets have all been tangled together like a giant knot that is slowly getting loosened. And from that mess, I didn’t feel I had anything to share. I’m still […]

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Purpose & Potential: The In-Between

One of the biggest struggles I have had in regard to life purpose is living in the tension between what could be and what is. Dreams and desires God seemed to put on my heart remain out of reach. Potential I see in myself stays dormant, for years.

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Pretending to be Strong

Sometimes I lie to myself and pretend I am strong. I pretend I am capable of taking care of myself, that I know what I need and am capable of obtaining it. I think it’s a survival instinct most of us fall back on. When we are hurt, when we are disappointed, when situations collapse […]

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Coming to the End of What I Thought I Knew

*** “Knowledge puffs up.” – 1 Corinthians 8:1 *** Ever since I was young, I have craved knowledge and understanding. As a kid, I asked my parents what the meaning of life was and thought their answer–“No one really knows”–was absolutely ridiculous. So everyone is just blindly staggering through their lives? That doesn’t make sense! I have […]

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Persevering Past the Not Good

I finally shared a draft of my novel with some other humans last week! I immediately regretted it. Then I decided I didn’t regret it. And then I concluded that this 62,000-word project I’ve been pouring all of myself into for the past 9 months was a bunch of junk. But it was still good I wrote it. […]

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In the Meantime

The real battleground is in the mind. That’s where the real war is waged. It’s where I do battle every day. Sometimes so many voices fight in my head that I get completely turned around. Small suggestions that seem harmless, like natural thoughts, can be poison. Sometimes it takes me the whole day to realize I’ve been slowly dying inside. I’m an over-thinker. […]

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