Remembering the Darkness

I used to see the dark times as something to forget. I wanted to pretend they had never happened. My struggles and failures, the moments of intense loneliness, fear, and confusion––I just wanted to put all that behind me. The point was to overcome. The point was to move forward. But in the midst of recent […]

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Coming to the End of What I Thought I Knew

*** “Knowledge puffs up.” – 1 Corinthians 8:1 *** Ever since I was young, I have craved knowledge and understanding. As a kid, I asked my parents what the meaning of life was and thought their answer–“No one really knows”–was absolutely ridiculous. So everyone is just blindly staggering through their lives? That doesn’t make sense! I have […]

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Learning to Embrace the Process

I’ve always liked to have things defined. Decided. Determined. Known. I don’t like being in the middle of decisions and I don’t like being left in an undefined state. Am I your friend or not? Am I moving to that city or not? Are we going to see that movie or not? Let’s just decide! (This is […]

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Overcoming Anxiety: Some Lessons Learned

Last week, I had a fierce battle with anxiety. Happy to say, I emerged victorious! Eventually. I knew from the start that I shouldn’t feel anxious, that it wasn’t helpful or productive. But even as I told myself not to worry, my stomach tied up tighter in knots. The thing is, telling yourself not to do […]

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If I Were Living For Anyone But Him

I got sick this week. I forgot how bad it feels to be sick. How hard it is to remain optimistic and gracious. How difficult to not pity yourself and shut others out. I almost didn’t make it to church today. I was sitting in front of my computer, eating breakfast, reading the news, looking though […]

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In the Dark

While I was lying in bed last night, two car crashes happened outside my open window.  It was somewhat terrifying to be half-asleep and hear that screech of tires followed by the crash of metal and glass.  Even though I was lying safely indoors up on the fourth floor, I felt as if the cars […]

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