Taking Myself Seriously as a Musician

Taking Myself Seriously

This year, God has been challenging me to take myself seriously as an intercessor, worship leader, shepherd, and influencer. And a big part of that has been choosing to cut certain things out of my life. In order to gain something, you often have to forfeit other things.

So I’ve been rearranging the way I live, the way I prioritize my time. I’ve been cutting out things like TV to make room for things like prayer and people.

Now, God has been pressing upon me that it is time to take myself seriously as a musician.

It has been two years since I have practiced the piano regularly, or even touched any real pianos (rather than dinky keyboards). Two years! Seeing that written down is startling…That’s how long it took to get my Master’s degree!


I wouldn’t say these past two years were wasted, musically.

The hiatus has been good for me. Idols have been uprooted, unhealthy performance mindsets have been unlearned, and I’ve been developing a keener ear focusing on worship music and improv. But, at the same time, I have also been ignoring God a bit in this area.

Over the past two years, there have been a number of distinct moments in which God has shown me that though classical music may no longer be a visible part of my life, He still sees it as part of who I am. (Most of these moments have involved sobbing.)

But up to this point, even when He has very clearly told me to practice the piano, keep up my skills, etc, I have only had bursts of inspiration to practice or do anything classical music related.

So, He’s been challenging me once again. (I love how persistent God is, how patiently He prods me.) This time, the tone is a bit different: I’ve given you the vision. I’ve given you the gifts, the calling, the passion. Now it’s up to you.

My Part: Taking Ownership

God calls––calling is His part. But how I respond is my part––that is my responsibility.

Will I take the call seriously? Or will I just go with the flow of the circumstances around me?

The thing is, God is always there to assist me, every step of the way. He doesn’t expect me to do it on my own. (Whew.) So when I asked God what specific steps I should take in order to “take myself seriously as a musician,” He didn’t slap me upside the head, He simply answered,

Start practicing an hour a day.

It was one of those duh moments. It always starts in the hidden place, always.

So, I have rearranged my morning routine, started getting up an hour earlier, and I’ve been working on Chopin’s fourth Ballade again! Picked up right where I left off a few months ago. It’s always crazy to me how naturally and quickly everything comes flooding back. My love of the music, my enjoyment of perfecting every little detail, my technique and musicality are all there, waiting to spring back to life.

But it strikes me: sacrifice is required.

Follow Through

This is just going to be another one of those short-lived moments of inspiration unless I take myself seriously this time. God is right. He has given me the vision, He has showed me how (in vague pictures and ideas) He wants to use my music. He has given me the gifts, it’s all right here. He has given me the passion–I feel more alive when I am practicing piano, it’s true. Now it’s up to me.

Only four days in, but I have to say: I’m feeling really good about this. Let’s see where this goes!



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Elizabeth holds to simple faith in a complex world. She values the beauty of the everyday and strives for vulnerability with other imperfect humans. She is currently pursuing her MDiv at Fuller Theological Seminary, so when she isn't busy writing academic papers, she is usually out enjoying the LA sunshine. She is constantly learning, laughing, and finding herself in awe of grace.

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