The Third Day of a New Thing

This week felt like a new beginning for me.

I started running, cooking, and waking up earlier. Life felt very different.

I was afraid I was going to feel too tired to keep all this up––that’s my normal excuse for sleeping in, not running, and eating the easiest-fix meals possible––but Monday and Tuesday, I felt great! I loved my new lifestyle!

Today, however, was the third day, and today was when it got hard.

Today I felt tired.

There could be all sorts of reasons for my lethargy. There was no sunshine, I didn’t get to go running, and some little relational stresses drained me emotionally. Or maybe I haven’t been going to bed early enough, haven’t been sleeping deeply enough, or what have you. The point is, I’m tempted to conclude that this new lifestyle just isn’t sustainable. It didn’t feel sustainable today.

I am confident that my new lifestyle choices are better than the ones I was making before, but just because you know something doesn’t make it easy to put into practice. Some days it’s easy. Some days it feels amazing! But then comes the third day, or the twentieth day, or whenever it happens to get hard. That’s when the real test comes.

Am I going to let my life be dictated by my tiredness?

Last night I spontaneously decided to scrub the kitchen floor on my hands and knees after dinner,

and thoroughly enjoyed doing so. The end result of being able to walk on a clean floor was great, but even the scrubbing itself was quite satisfying.

Today, I had absolutely no desire to do any impromptu cleaning, but I did make myself a rather tasty, nutritious dinner (of an eclectic mix of vegetables and tofu) and I did take out the food trash (which is not very fun, if those of you who don’t live in Korea can imagine) and I think that’s pretty good.

I’d just like to say: I’m proud of myself for today.

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Elizabeth is an American living in South Korea who believes in destiny, miracles, and living life intentionally. She holds to simple faith in a complex world, values the beauty of the everyday, and strives for vulnerability with other imperfect humans. She is always learning, laughing, and finding herself in awe of grace.

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